I’m an introvert. I’ve found most people don’t believe me when I tell them that but once they get to know me they see it more and more. I remember one Saturday when Mr. Z was in tax season, therefore working on the weekend, he came home and asked me what I did all day. I told him I ran errands and took care of some things around the house. He asked, “Did you talk to anyone today?” I smiled and said, “Nope.” Almost in a proud way. He looked at me seriously puzzled, “Really? You didn’t talk to anyone?” And I said, “Well, I said ‘Hi’ to the cashier at CVS and asked how she was going.” He looked at me dumbfounded. He couldn’t believe I could spend an entire day alone and not talk to anyone.
I loved it! And I love days like that. When I can wake-up when I’m ready to, spend time reading my Bible, praying and just being in the presence of Lord and then wandering through the day running errands and doing chores, whatever needs to be done really. I love it.
Well, this weekend I am stepping way outside that solo comfort zone of mine and I’m going on a women’s retreat. This is a BIG deal for me. I know ONE person going on this thing. And typically I don’t attend things like this unless I have some kind of responsibility. If I have a role to play then I can hide behind that and not worry about the awkward moments when I need to initiate conversations with people I don’t know and try not to worry if I come off strange. I can be horribly insecure in these situations. Not to mention I am awful at small talk, which is pretty much the death of anyone when they’re in a place that requires small talk to open the door to deeper conversations that lead to long-lasting relationships.
But I am going to BE BRAVE. My prayer for this weekend is that I would be bold enough to step out of my comfort zone and just let God do His thing. I know I need time with my Jesus and I know my soul has been longing for ministry opportunities, both to be poured into and to pour into others.
So if you think of me this weekend please feel free to pray for boldness and peace :-) I’m pretty sure there are going to be some incredible ladies at this thing, they’re probably all a lot cooler than me (I know I’m a total nerd and I’m okay with that), maybe their coolness will rub off on me. I’ll let you know how it goes ;-)
When was a time you purposely stepped out of your comfort zone? How did it go?