My Improper View of God
Posted by Lindsey on Nov 3, 2011 in The Block | 2 comments
The day after we discovered I waspregnant we loaded up the car and headed to Michigan as planned. We were eager to enjoy the last weekend of summer. It was a wonderful weekend just the two of us but there was also some unwanted company.
The entire time we were there I kept starting conversations with, “Well, if we’re pregnant…” My husband repeatedly responded, “You are pregnant, you took two pregnancy tests, what else do you need?”
I had this intense fear that I was not going to meet this baby, that in fact we wouldn’t make it out of the first trimester. I had no medical or rational reason for thinking this, it’s just that I have watched so many friends and relatives go through miscarriages and struggle with infertility that I couldn’t believe we might make it through the first trimester.
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I had this too, never letting out my breath before the first trimester was over, and then, when they were born being instantly worried about them being healthy instead of living the joy. Now at 5 and 3, they help me live that joy daily. They teach us things, these kids :)
So nice to know I’m not alone :-) I keep thinking “this is just the beginning!” So excited for it all!